Every Hair On Your Head

"And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered"  (Matthew 10:30)

Well I must say that the Lord is spending less time each day counting mine!  (LOL) Once again I am losing hair.  The last time this happen was 3 years ago when I had my first surgery for liver cancer.  I began to lose hair about 8 weeks after surgery.  I really questioned God and said, why??  I am not taking chemo or radiation and yet every day I get multiple hairs coming out when I wash and dry it.  His response to me was daunting, "You would not feel what it was like unless you experienced it".  That was my first ingling that God was going to use me to help others facing serious illness.  At this time when I asked my primary care doctor about it, she remarked, "That when the body goes through such a tremedous stress, your hair reacts about 6 to 8 weeks later."  Great!  Just what I wanted to hear.

I lost quite a bit of hair and had to resort to buying hats and wigs. I will never forget going to a department store looking for hats, and I was wearing one at the time.  The sales clerk said, "So your into hats, huh?"  I quickly responded and said, "No cancer!"  Oh it just came blurting out of my mouth.  I left with hats in my hand, tears filling my eyes and hating the whole experience. 

It was a few weeks later, when I was wearing a hat everyday to work, that a co worker of mine offered to take me to a wig store close by.  After all, I thought I might be losing hair permanently.  When I took my hat off to try on wigs, she looked at me and said, "Oh it really is looking very thin".  I began to tear up and tried my best to get my composure.  I ended up buying a wig that day.  I began buying another wig, scarfs, anything that would hide my head.  Just so you know, your hairdresser can style a wig to fit you.  Mine did and I got a lot of complements on it.  But I hated wearing anything on my head...it was itchy and hot!  But you endure what you have to and I did.

My hair did return, but now I am facing hair loss once again due to stress my body has had during this last nightmare surgery for lung cancer.  So my husband says, "Well we have been here before, it will grow back."  That statement was true, but when you are losing handfuls of hair daily, it effects you emotionally.  Each time I brush my hair and run my figures thru it, some comes out.  Ugh!  It never feels good for a woman to lose so much hair.  I find my self looking at every woman's hair wishing I had their hair.  Dumb I know, but your confidence just plumets no matter how or how much hair is lost.

So hair!  Never doubt the importance it is to anyone facing hair loss due to illness.  It is devasting even the 2nd time around.  Okay God, second time around.  Can this be the last?