As I lay flat on my back 3 times in the last two weeks, I wondered how many white ceiling tiles have I stared at in the last 2+ years. Somehow they need to make what you stare at more interesting. I searched yesterday trying to get thru the 2nd nuclear scan for topics, songs, anything to think about instead of the boring white ceiling tiles. Oh, and did I mention that the scanning equipment is so close to your face and body you can't move. It is a good thing I am not claustrophobic.
So I go back to the oncologist today to find out we need to have 1 more scan! Yikes and this time I get to drink the lovely bottles of contrast before hand. I've done that before, and boy is hard to get that second bottle down before the scan. I guess the good news is that both the CT PET & Nuclear Scan did show the tumor on the lung, but nothing on the liver. Since the last CT Scan I had when I was in the hospital a few weeks back, thought they showed a subtle lesion on the liver, we need to make sure. But I have been sick with congestion in my lungs again. More antibiotic just make sure I do not get pnemonia once again. My oncologist is making a call to John Hopkins to a Oncology Thorax surgeon to refer me to. And if the liver shows anything I will see a Liver Surgeon also at John Hopkins.
As someone as task oriented as I am, all these prelimany tests are driving me a bit crazy. Sometimes I thing the tests are worse than actual surgery or what the next step of treatment is. The world goes on around me and I feel like I am standing still unable to think or plan beyond today. It's like being in a crowded airport and every plane is taking off for everyone else. But.....I am grounded and have no idea when my plane will take off. Okay Lord, I need to be patient and trust in You. Just hurry up will ya! (LOL) I know that He let this tumor in the lung be seen unexpectantly. I can not deny He is with me. I wouldn't take this journey without relying on the Lord. He is my peace an comfort.
Praying Norene.
ReplyDeletedebbie oman
Without your faith and your family this would be impossible. I praise God that you have both! I continue to lift you in prayer. May you find the strength to face each day with a positive attitude and renewed spirit.
ReplyDeleteTracee Wales
I'm so proud of you for having the courage to write this blog. Not only will it help others as they travel the road you are traveling, but I suspect it will also be good for you to be able to express your thoughts and feelings. We women need that.
ReplyDeleteNow about the white ceiling tiles, I am totally with you on that! We are apparently not alone in that opinion because when I went to a doctor's appointment recently; I was pleasantly surprised to see a screen on the ceiling right above the exam table of cherry blossoms blooming! So much better than the white tiles! :-)
Love You!
Jenn Schnepp